THE BLESSING THAT IS MICROSOFT WORD 2007
YES THAT IS A STRANGE TITLE BUT I COULD KISS THE MAKERS OF WORD 2007
I have sat and emptied my heart out onto two CJ entries today - I had them all the way I wanted and thought whilst I am printing them I wanted to use them again in my BOM... all fine and dandy.... copied & pasted onto another word doc and then thought Hey I will blog bout it as there is a lot that I want people to know about - what happens - the bloody pc crashed - I was devastated - all those hours of heartfelt typing and it was gone - re-booted PC and guess what MICROSOFT WORD 2007 autosaved the lot - well not blogger stuff but the stuff on WORD - I could have kissed the makers!!
So here I am again - trying to remember my blogging entry...which is hard as it was very deep and took me a long time to work myself up to doing it.
Please be patient with me on this entry - I have not been well - yes again!! - both physically & mentally this time!! I am still suffering with both - but a hell of a lot better than I was.. so I might not be as clear as I want to be...
I have to let you see some of the CJ stuff for you to understand where I am coming from.. mind you not that I care what anyone else thinks.. this is for me.. and for others right enough ... they will know who they are.... but even then I don't care what they think! but I do want them to know what I think!!
PRIDE & JOY
I have thought long & hard about this subject and there are a few really obvious things that I could have used for this – but during many hours of quiet time (which is very rare for me!) I finally came to the conclusion that my greatest pride and joy has to be my marriage.
Anyone that has known me for a long time would probably have been shocked to the core that I was getting married. I have done things in the wrong order all my life – not the wrong order but the order of the “norm” I met my wonderful husband when I was pregnant with my second child – strange? – yes – meant to be – definitely. The meeting of my husband was a totally random thing but from that first meeting that was it – we were destined to be what we are – best friends, soul mates, whatever you want to call it – we are meant to be. That we are still together 11 years later is my greatest pride and joy. I have never in my life felt so comfortable with another person & for that I must thank him from the bottom of my heart, he allows me to be me and more importantly he does not judge. I also have to be congratulated myself for allowing such a relationship to blossom – I never thought that I would be allowed – entitled – worthy. So to end my Pride & Joy is my marriage to my wonderful husband – Graham – Thank You!
THE BEST YEAR - 2006
The Achievements - Bad Relationships – ended – gone – out of my life for ever
Health – beginning of the beginning to get better
Family – coming together – closer than ever – children happy & safe
Home – new town - new house – new start
Extended family – making amends for past problems – understanding & closure
All of the above have happened in this last year which was 2006 – I never thought in my life I would be in such a good place – the last 12 months have been very hard – many lessons learnt for the better which has made our family a tight knit unit that no-one will ever damage or break up. For that I am grateful and happy – we are all stronger and better people and to those that hurt us – thank you – you made us the strong and happy family we are.
I think the most important thing that really has to be done is for me to allow myself to "let go" about certain things that have been going on in my life and to be honest I am not doing this for anyone else but myself - then again there are certain things I want to clear up. So much has been said about me and against me over the last while - to those that are concerned - thank you! - yes thank you - you have made me a better person and you have let me free from the pressure of trying to be what other people want me to be. I am sick to the back teeth of people trying to "shape" me into what they want. I have had time to look back on events and I cannot believe that those people made me feel/behave the way I did. The biggest thing for me out of the whole thing is that I am the only one guilty of behaving badly - yes that is right - they did nothing wrong - they are perfect - CONGRATULATIONS ON ACHIEVING PERFECTION - WHATEVER! - I was even accused of trying to RUN SOMEONE OVER!! In the name of the wee man get a grip on reality here! Yes there was a witness - sure her optician would be delighted to see her!! Sadly other good people were affected by all this crap and this makes me sad - sad that friendships were lost as sides were taken - sad that one day those good people will end up just the same way I did. I have property that needs collecting and once that is done I can truly be free from the madness that was a so-called friendship.
This is my life - these are my thoughts and feelings - and for the first time in my life - I am proud of me, my family and what we have achieved - so to all those out there that think they are better than me...... good luck - there are many lessons you have still to learn, better watch out though - it's gonna be a bumpy road for you!
To those that love and care about me and to those I love and care about -
you know who you are
thank you!
& take care
Huge Hugs
Heather
xx
I have sat and emptied my heart out onto two CJ entries today - I had them all the way I wanted and thought whilst I am printing them I wanted to use them again in my BOM... all fine and dandy.... copied & pasted onto another word doc and then thought Hey I will blog bout it as there is a lot that I want people to know about - what happens - the bloody pc crashed - I was devastated - all those hours of heartfelt typing and it was gone - re-booted PC and guess what MICROSOFT WORD 2007 autosaved the lot - well not blogger stuff but the stuff on WORD - I could have kissed the makers!!
So here I am again - trying to remember my blogging entry...which is hard as it was very deep and took me a long time to work myself up to doing it.
Please be patient with me on this entry - I have not been well - yes again!! - both physically & mentally this time!! I am still suffering with both - but a hell of a lot better than I was.. so I might not be as clear as I want to be...
I have to let you see some of the CJ stuff for you to understand where I am coming from.. mind you not that I care what anyone else thinks.. this is for me.. and for others right enough ... they will know who they are.... but even then I don't care what they think! but I do want them to know what I think!!
PRIDE & JOY
I have thought long & hard about this subject and there are a few really obvious things that I could have used for this – but during many hours of quiet time (which is very rare for me!) I finally came to the conclusion that my greatest pride and joy has to be my marriage.
Anyone that has known me for a long time would probably have been shocked to the core that I was getting married. I have done things in the wrong order all my life – not the wrong order but the order of the “norm” I met my wonderful husband when I was pregnant with my second child – strange? – yes – meant to be – definitely. The meeting of my husband was a totally random thing but from that first meeting that was it – we were destined to be what we are – best friends, soul mates, whatever you want to call it – we are meant to be. That we are still together 11 years later is my greatest pride and joy. I have never in my life felt so comfortable with another person & for that I must thank him from the bottom of my heart, he allows me to be me and more importantly he does not judge. I also have to be congratulated myself for allowing such a relationship to blossom – I never thought that I would be allowed – entitled – worthy. So to end my Pride & Joy is my marriage to my wonderful husband – Graham – Thank You!
THE BEST YEAR - 2006
The Achievements - Bad Relationships – ended – gone – out of my life for ever
Health – beginning of the beginning to get better
Family – coming together – closer than ever – children happy & safe
Home – new town - new house – new start
Extended family – making amends for past problems – understanding & closure
All of the above have happened in this last year which was 2006 – I never thought in my life I would be in such a good place – the last 12 months have been very hard – many lessons learnt for the better which has made our family a tight knit unit that no-one will ever damage or break up. For that I am grateful and happy – we are all stronger and better people and to those that hurt us – thank you – you made us the strong and happy family we are.
I think the most important thing that really has to be done is for me to allow myself to "let go" about certain things that have been going on in my life and to be honest I am not doing this for anyone else but myself - then again there are certain things I want to clear up. So much has been said about me and against me over the last while - to those that are concerned - thank you! - yes thank you - you have made me a better person and you have let me free from the pressure of trying to be what other people want me to be. I am sick to the back teeth of people trying to "shape" me into what they want. I have had time to look back on events and I cannot believe that those people made me feel/behave the way I did. The biggest thing for me out of the whole thing is that I am the only one guilty of behaving badly - yes that is right - they did nothing wrong - they are perfect - CONGRATULATIONS ON ACHIEVING PERFECTION - WHATEVER! - I was even accused of trying to RUN SOMEONE OVER!! In the name of the wee man get a grip on reality here! Yes there was a witness - sure her optician would be delighted to see her!! Sadly other good people were affected by all this crap and this makes me sad - sad that friendships were lost as sides were taken - sad that one day those good people will end up just the same way I did. I have property that needs collecting and once that is done I can truly be free from the madness that was a so-called friendship.
This is my life - these are my thoughts and feelings - and for the first time in my life - I am proud of me, my family and what we have achieved - so to all those out there that think they are better than me...... good luck - there are many lessons you have still to learn, better watch out though - it's gonna be a bumpy road for you!
To those that love and care about me and to those I love and care about -
you know who you are
thank you!
& take care
Huge Hugs
Heather
xx
(I NEED TO ADD THAT I AM NOT DWELLING ON THE PAST IN THIS POST BUT ACTUALLY PUTTING THE PAST TO REST - FOR GOOD - ALSO PLEASE LET US ALL KNOW WHO YOU ARE WHEN YOU POST A COMMENT - WOULD BE NICE TO KNOW WHO VISITS - THANK YOU. TAKE CARE XX)
2 comments:
So sorry to hear you have been poorly, I hope your on the road to recovery. I do believe you should put the past behind you now though and move on, surely reflecting on the past is not good for you physical and mental health.
CJ entry's are lovely.
Take good care of yourself and enjoy the festive season.
wow hunny
that is some poweful blog entry, i wish you all the happiness and well being you deserve
wishing you and your family a wonderful Christmas and New Year
hugs xoxoxoxox
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